09-09-2007, 05:18 AM
I'd like to teach the world to sing, in perfect harmony. But not everyone wants to sing the same tune. I used to get mad & scream at those that couldn't see things my way, hoping to sometimes even beat some sense into them. Then I became jaded & gave up. I figured that if folks wanted to be jerks, then let them! I withdrew into my shell & let the world go by. I now feel that there must be a reason for all the hate & stupidity in the world. I feel that just because the whole world's an asshole, dosen't mean I have to be one too! I have been thinking about things lately. I realize that the patterns people live in are patterns that have existed for many thousands of years. Now I just live my life the best I can. I've discovered that yelling & screaming at someone won't do much to change them, if anything it just proves to them that they are right & that I'm just some crazy jerk who's out of touch with reality. I've been blessed in that I've always known that my purpose in this life is to learn as much as I can. And I've managed to be lucky enough to have learned a lot in this world. I used to talk to anyone & everyone. I still do, but now I have more experence to go on. I've found that talking to folks calmly makes more of an impression than trying to force my ideas on them. Many times I've found that I've even managed to get some folks to actually think about what I've said where before thay would only build the walls up higher against my "crazy" ideas. I've actually had conversations with people where I left thinking that I just wasted my time & that that person would never change, only to find out months, sometimes years later that my conversation with them actually started them thinking. I met a person I had one such conversation with & had gone away from thinking that I had not made any impression on at all. He saw me on the street a few months later & told me that awhile after we had that conversation that he had actually started thinking about what I had said. He told me that while he thought I was some crazy idealist that the way I had talked to him about it, not what I said, had got him to thinking about how I actually lived my life & how he lived his. While I don't think he had decided to completely change his life, he was starting to question his goals & how he saw others. While that may not seem like a lot to you, I believe that if I can get one person to think about life & others differently by my example, then maybe that one person might affect another, & that person affect another, & so on. I might not change the world, but if I can make the world around me a little bit better by my example, then maybe I can help start a small reaction that will grow & maybe help prepare folks to help better the world themselves. It may not be much, but I've got to start somewheres & I seem to be doing much more now by getting a few folks to think about things, than screaming & getting many others to respond in kind by screaming back.